Friday, February 29, 2008

Take Care of You!

It's been quite crazy over here. No need to even go there. One thing about this whole blog thing, I promised myself that I would not use/abuse it as a venting ground. I understand that may work for some people, but for me, nahhh. We deal with enough stress, bad news, and havoc, so why come here and start fussing. Besides people, you know I love to laugh....I laugh, you laugh *wink*
Nothing really new, although I did receive some not so good news on something that I have been waiting for since the summer of last year. I'm ok, I just have to trust God and keep it moving. They say when one door closes, God open another one. So I'm just trusting that He has something better. Expect nothing but the best, right?
Well couple of days ago mom and I went to John Hopkins in Bmore for my second opinion concerning this whole Lupus disease that the doctors say I have. Ohhhh my! I have heard some serious good things about John Hopkins, matter of fact, a lot of Delawareans go to JH. Any event, I went and I was very please. This doctor really took care of me. He listened, took notes, asked questions and when he found out that these Delaware Dr.'s prescribed be 100mg (5x a day) of Prednisone (steroids), he flipped out. First and for the longest, he didn't believe me. He said that they don't even MAKE such a high dosage of Prednisone, and I told him that they did (I wasn't trying to be smart mouth). So we went back and forth. People, keep your records for your records, you never know. I explained everything and just by his facial expression I could tell that he knew these Doctors did me wrong (not all of them), so if I have to drive an hour and some, then I'll do that. I don't want myself or anyone jepardizing my health anymore.
I've been eating right (sometimes) but definitely going to the gym. I've been trying to keep up on my appearance. See, for me, looking good is not hard, it's being consistence with it. That's the part where I need help. Before I lost myself (in marriage, kids, life growing pains, etc...) I used to be on POINT!!! Nails, BAM! Hair, BAM! Toes stayed done, BAM! Eyebrows waxed, BAM! Always dressed up, BAM! Smell good, BAM! Body right, Double BAM!! And the list goes on from smell goods to just flat out fashionable. Ohhhh, but then trials and tribulations came and need I say more that I let myself go. I spoke with an old college friend of mine and he brought back to my remembrance of how I used to carry myself. He was like, "A, your hair was always done, nails, very classy, always looking good etc..." and as he was talking, I drifted in thought and was like, "wow, I used to look/be that, wowwww, where is she now?" "I need to get her back and be better then what I was before." I don't want to look back and say those were my glory days, NO! I should be looking hotter then before. From top to bottom. I've been down too long, sad too long, neglected myself too long. I'm still young, what the heck, I need to get it together and do ME! So I set up my own personal beauty regimen. Again, it's keeping up with the look. I have no problem getting my eyebrows done, it's just that I will wait til they look like caterpillars or centipedes til I get them redone. This time round it's every two weeks for me to get them redone and I'm sticking with it. My hubby's cousin has been trying to convince me to get a Brazilian bikini wax and finally I did and I LOVE IT!!!!! So needless to say I will add that to the list. Ladies, please try it, you will actually love it. A massage once a month is also what I'm going for. Just keeping it overall tight and together. Clothes, hair, accessories, shoes, you name it. I even brought some more M.A.C eyeshadow and I love it. It's funny, people treat you different when you look or present yourself a certain way, I don't agree with it, but that's the society we live in. Oh yeah, don't forget to take your vitamins. Anybody can dress it up on the outside, but you want to be healthy on the inside. Spiritual heath, well pray. They say prayer changes things and I totally agree. Prayer gives you hope, peace and faith, in JESUS name.

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

It's Been A Minute

It feels good to be back on here. I hope all had a Happy New Year and expecting nothing but the best for the 2008 season. All is well with me. Just lots of doctors appointment, testing, and follow-ups. Everything is looking good with my heart and health. I really had cut out the salt in my diet as well as fat. I started up the gym two weeks ago and I'm loving it. I'm really feeling better as the days go by. Now, I'm still on medical leave but I made a decision in my mind that I will no longer be able to work at the job I'm at. It demands too much stress and right now with the heart condition I have I don't need that type of stress. Honestly, it hasn't even been 3 months since the surgery. I need at least 6 months to recover...well, again, I'm resigning as a family service worker. Now I can focus on the real estate and I'm thinking about reopening my daycare, but this time I need to find a building.

What's new in my world. Well after all these years of wanting an authentic african garment, my prayers were answered. My girlfriend sister in law came in from Nigeria (her first time in the states) and when we first met she gave me a 3pc jewlry set, and then right before we left to go to the outlets at the beach, she handed me a beautiful black and white african attire. Ohhhh man, my heart melted, that was too sweet of her. I have to call her "auntie" Dami because she older then me. I still don't understand that, but oh well. Auntie Dami and I got along very well. I expected her to be serious but she was down to earth and schooled me and my girlfriend on fashion and husbands. Her stepdaughter also came along with her, Tito. She is cool too. She is the one that is getting married and they both invited me to the wedding which is in Nigeria. Man, that would be sweet. We'll see, although it would be nice.

Baby daddy (wink) and I are getting along better then ever. It's like our friendship has been restored and revived (we all know it was God). I finally forgave the hell hubby put me through and I no longer throw his wrong doings in his face because I finally truly forgave. True forgiveness is when you forget that persons wrong doings and love them with a new love, and that can only happen with the help of the holy spirit. When we ask God for forgiveness, does He throw our sins back in our face? Nope, not at all. I'm not saying it's easy, trust me. Look how long it too me, since 2006. Better late then never, right.

LOVE, LAUGH, and LIVE, that's my motto for this year. I'm living my life like it's golden, because it is.